Sent From The Past

I worked at a coffee shop in little Old Town.  I loved working here, I love talking to people, serving others and meeting new people.  Not to mention this job gave me a lot of free time to do whatever I wanted…reading (this was the start of my deep desire to read A LOT),  art work, writing, using my computer to email…and lets not forget I even used drugs and drank while on the job.  Since Mr. Romeo was taking the summer off from work, he also had a lot of free time which allowed us to develop a pretty deep internet connection.  Our emails discussed deep topics…Intellectual and stimulating to me.  I became so in love with his insight and his great ability to understand me.  My dream man was resourceful and wise, he kept me busy and he inspired me.

I am pretty big believer in the sun signs…If you are unfamiliar let me explain, 2 Scorpios united can be incredible or disaster.  Scorpions are know to be the most intense of the signs, fierce and fiery. The tail is filled with venom and used when feeling attacked. Astrologically the scorpion is comprised of opposites they are conservative but desire change, they are independent but also clinging.  The romantic trick for a scorpion couple is to allow for these inner opposites to become attracted carefully avoiding those instances when both scorpions are stubbornly fixed at the same extreme.  Well let me say there is not to much romance when there is heavy amounts of alcohol used.   Life was about me and I was stubborn I didn’t see his feelings, and I didn’t know how to feel mine.  I used everything I could to push my feelings away from me, but I expected him to understand my every thought and emotion because I began to cling to this idea that he was the only one that understood me.  Instead of being honest and straight forward with my communication I became conflicted creating a space for confusion, contortion of emotion and lies based in fear.