Sent From The Past

As you can imagine the arguments began after I started needing my unrealistic expectations filled.  Mr. Perfect and I laid in bed together many times completely entranced with each other, just talking stories…stories of our past, our relationships, hopes and dreams, desires, how we feel about ourselves and on and on.  There was this one time in bed that I still haven’t forgotten.  As we were talking he looked over to me and said you know it is so awesome we haven’t argued about anything…This was about 3 months into our relationship. Soon after arguments arose, distrust reared its ugly head and the thinking mind gave into negative thoughts.   The first incident I can remember of me falling prey to fear and over reacting, creating an unneeded situation.

Mr Romeo went to play poker with his friends, because I was in bed passed out… So when I woke up, I was upset because for one I was confused about where I was and why I was alone.  I was upset because he was not laying with me.  I was scared I was just left there used.  I went out to get a drink of water as I overheard him telling his friends, ” I don’t even know why I am out here, I have a beautiful woman in my bed.”  It was sweet

But, still on the way back to the room I had decided he was just saying that and I needed to leave.  He was going to abandon me anyway, I need to leave now.  He stopped me and convinced to me to stay, things were better by morning.