Sent From The Past

A boy and  A girl, Love and Conflict, Change and Growth, Patience and Time…

The past 5 year have been the most challenging years of my life.  Physically, mentally, and emotionally…There has been a relationship that has deeply effected my core.   A boy/man who I have seen every range of emotion with, questioned life in many different perspectives (still being my own), confused myself, cried myself to sleep night after night, loved deeper than I knew possible, feared and hated with rage and anger, felt vulnerable, alone, lost, filled with comfort and support….and have flat out had to go deep inside myself to find out what is going on with ME.

I have heard and do believe that ninety-nine percent of what bothers you is about you.  Ninety-nine percent of what bothers others has nothing to do with you.  So with in this last year with patience, time, and growth I have been able to look at how I may have turned this statement around, blaming others for my own problems and am now taking responsibility for my own problems and letting others take care of their OWN.  AS far as the relationship with the boy/man (aka dream man) that has been a constant struggle of learning the difference between love and conflict goes…. I have no idea where the relationship  may lead nor do I longer worry.  I have found a greater relationship, a connection within myself that I have been able to witness and watch grow. My relationship with myself,  loving myself without judgment and without fear.  Each day is a new experience and progress in understanding and embracing self-love.

“Above all, be true to yourself, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it.”

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